Fear

What are you afraid of? Don't say nothing, that's bullshit. Everyone is afraid of something. I don't see how you can't be. We may not like it but fear is an important part of our lives. You may not think that is true but keep reading I will explain.

See we are all afraid of one thing, or at least i believe we are. That is death. I have never met a person who is not afraid of it. Some have accepted it, they know that no matter when they die they know where they'll end up. But that doesn't mean they don't fear death. I'm not scared of what happens after I die, that's to stupid to worry about. But i am scared of what it would feel like to die. What happens in those last moments? Do i have a flashback do?Do i see that light at the end of the tunnel? Does everything just fade to black like in a movie? That is what scares me about death.

But when i really think about it i guess death also does more then scare me, it motivates me. I hear about people dying suddenly all the time. They didn't do anything, sometimes luck just is not on your side. It's the knowledge that any day i could die that keeps me going. It makes me want to do something with my life. I don't have to do anything life changing but i want to have a life that at my funeral people can look back and say "He had a good life, full of friends and happiness." It's that motivation that keeps me trying to make myself a better person.

There is one last thing. Some people I'm sure are not afraid of there own death. But i am sure that everyone is afraid of the death of a loved one. Whether it's your best friend or your grandma we are afraid to let go of that person. I will tell you my grandma is 87, has high blood pressure, arthritis, and is overweight. And i will tell you i am dreading the day that i get pulled out of school for some reason i don't know. It's scares the hell out of me. Some people would say not to worry about it, but that's impossible.

Many people have gone through the loss of a loved one and i feel deeply for them. I may not know what that feels like but i still know it must hurt to the very bottom of your person. But these people can reinforce my point that death is a thing that is scary. So as i leave once again i ask you this question with a different perspective, "What are you afraid of?"

Just Think About It,
Tufte